Thursday, November 4, 2010

Working Hard, Honestly.

Today was a pretty good day all in all. I've been taking little steps to straighten out my life a little.
Last night at about 1 am, I deleted all my mini-games off of my Facebook account. I deleted Sorority Life, Yoville, Farmville, and Mallworld. It was painful! I was pretty far along in all those games, so getting rid of them was a stab in the heart. I decided, thought, that is was for the best because they really took alot of time out of my day. Fluff time. I even had gone as far as buying Brownie Points and Yocash with real life money. NOT GOOD! They are gone! It's my punishment...
Secondly, I did my devotions today...I started with Genesis 1 and printed out a devotion (it was very theological) that went with it. I actually read some things in Genesis 1 that had me a bit trifled...but I'm sure it will make sense after a little while, some things seem to be out of order to me from the 1st part of the chapter to things in the last half. I need to look it up.
Thirdly, I reentered into my SparkPeople account and monitored my eating today. I feel like I didn't eat anything! But that's only because right now my body is used to white flower and white sugars and eating ALL THE TIME! I went a little over goal today on calories. :( I ate about 50 calories above goal. I went out to dinner with my mom, so I guess it was worth it.
I still skipped a class today...I know...I know...Slowly, right? I promise I'm getting back on track. I have been in the process of resubmitting late homework assignments. So that's good.
No exercise today, but I promise soon! SOON! It's hard to get motivated...lol.
I'm also planning to send of some emails and fb messages off to people I've kinda been ignoring again...another "shame on me". Poo.

See ya later, internets. (*stolen from Melina Rose)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

The Tides Start to Turn

I'm doing this blog on my iPod touch so I feel like I'm doing a teeny-weeny blog. It really is incredibly difficult to type on this thing; but a novelty no less. I'm sitting in a Caribou Coffee right now trying to catch up on homework. As usual this semester has not been successful, I wonder if I'll ever have the motivation to be a good student again. I've done it before! My first year of college I recieved a 3.6 GPA and went on the national honors list. I don't know where that "me" went to. Now I'm someone that only maybe-sorta goes to class, is forever behind with projects, I go to bed at 2 or 3am, eat terrible, I talk myself out of going to class and hanging out with friends, I don't exercise, I spend way to much time watching anime or on YouTube, or playing games on the computer, I have no portfolio to prove I'm an artist and with these grades I doubt I will ever be excepted into grad school. Yep, basically I'm one step away from being a bum.
Not to mention I don't think I've picked up my bible in months which makes it that much worse because not only am I failing society, I'm failing god!
Well, obviously, I've come to grips with my short comings, which they say is the first step. I don't know where to start or what what to change first but I know something has to happen. I did decided to read the bible daily starting in Genesis and reading through to Revelations. I know that will be a good step for me. It scared me the other day when I couldn't remember how many days Noah was in the ark. I mean that's basic stuff there...5 year-olds know that! It made me really ashamed for some reason. :(
Yep, that's my first step tomorrow! I'M GOING TO STICK TO IT!